Time to audit your desires. Take a breather every 6 months and Observe:
Your journey of the past 6 months
Your desired next 6 months
The 'least-wrong' path to its success
Our existence on your 'least-wrong' path may at best be incidental. You may not set it as an expectation.
This is a personal activity to do at your end every 6 months. Loop us in the process if you wish. Loop us in the output for sure.
Humans eventually and truly only do what they want. Irrespective of their choice to not see the choice in that behavior.
The most efficient life path is to stay aligned to that you truly seek. That is when we do our best work. Inspect your desires.
Path to a rewarding life:
Start with what you want.
Let your alignment (to where ever) be a discovery. Not a weight.